I really felt terrible that i needed to write this out .......I felt no love at all seriously.......Twins,they have been siding jon i mean i admit i was at fault but he was also at fault.Jing always loving others more trust me really.Jon,He is damn..... getting me pissed off........Norman,If i am in a bad temper i would shout at him .You know what he did ? On sat i was on my mischevious mood so i was just playing with his hoodie he had on his jacket.And he was like shouting at me 'What's your problem ?' I was so pissed off .I really felt like dying .Its like everything i do its wrong .Basically of i cannot felt love from God's people you think i can felt love from christ.Okay i am so dying here.......Finally i thought when i first came into this church i will never backslide but least it really happen now here am i not going to church anymore.......Even though i felt like but i go there to just waste my time............Forget it nothing i do will ever make me from earning more love.I mean why should i attract attention even though i like to........Its just not worth it because there is no true friends in the earth only the one i have is my toy dolphin