Sometimes I wonder what is love. I will hid my head above the water. What i love ?

Love is a heartbreaking feeling, it can feel goo or bad.

Is it really bad ?

Well You must experience it yourself..............

I did !

It was the best yet heart breaking time.

It was like on puffy clouds.

Like the water on a beach.

Like flowers floating on pure water.

Like Wind collide with the rain.

Like Air in the world.

Its great

Truly great.

Close your eyes now and experience it.


I've been tagged by Jo!Randomly remove one question from above, and add in your own question,make it a total of 20 questions, tag 8 people in the list,list them out at the end of this post, notify them in their chat box that he/she had been tagged,and whoever does the tag will have blessings from all people . ;D

1) What will i be focused on most of the time ?
I Will be focus on my Laptop, Choreographing skills, Acting Skills, Script Writing, Vocals Exercises, My guitar and god:) Music Too !

2) What do you want the most now ?
I really wants an I-Phone. I would be really blessed. And maybe a role for 'Camp Rock' Best is the Love Interest of Joe Jonas

3) Who is the person you trust most ?
Jesus Christ ! Elizabeth !


4) Do you think you have enough confidence ?
Definitely Confidence is the key to most things

5) Do you want to score well in all your test ?
test of what ? Intelligence ? Love ? Acting ? Singing ?


6) Do you believe seeing a rainbow after the rain ?
No. Sometimes after rain they maybe a rainbow but maybe not too. Like Life.

7) What is your goal for this year ?
Love God more ! Train my guitar skills. Acting Skills Improve

8) 10 things about you
1. I Love Sushi
2. I can hold my alcohol very well.Once i drank a whole bottle of wine I am still not drunk
3.I Believe in Destiny that Me and the other half were meant to be if we ever meet.
4. I always believe in living out our dreams the most
5. I can write songs
6.If there is a fire what would I save first ?
My Bible/ My guitar and my toy dolphin *Shy*
7. I am a natural Introvert-Extrovert but i likes to make people laugh
8. I really am in love with my Laptop and I named it Ariel
9.I am a very brave and dangerous person. If I am ever a spy I don't mind bungee down a building
10. I know basic Martial Arts/ Judo

9) What feeling do you like the most ?
Um........ loved, Romance ?

10) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half ?
Firstly, I really have already a dream guy in mind. I hope my other half would be humorous. Making me laugh whenever I am down. Have a heart of Gold. Truthfully, I never said this to any favourite singers or actor. But Joe Jonas is really the ideal guy I hope to have. And Last of all loving God.

11) What feeling do you hate most ?
Feeling i hate the most will be Betrayed, Gossipers gossiping about me. Rumours, unclean

12) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?
Mostly yes but there are some friendship which is definitely not worth it.

13) Do you believe in god ?
Yes absolutely

14) What do you think is most important of your life ?
God, Jesus, Family, Cg

15) Who do you hope to be always there for you ?
Jesus Christ

16) Who is your best friend ?
Jesus is my #1 friend, Cg members they are my support

17) Who cares for you the most ?
Family, Cg and if my partner is upset I will be there for him

18) Do you want that special someone of yours to be by your side now ?
No .... i want God by me :)

19) Who makes you smile when you are down ?
Joe Jonas in the videos i watch

20) If god allowed you to have one and only wish, and its definitely going to be fulfilled, what will it be ?
I would wish that i would live my dream

the 8 lucky persons are : Hehe.................Zhen Ying, Elizabeth and Esther, Jonathan, Lun Jie, Joanne, N282 and jing woo :)


Sometimes is wonder does true friends exsist ? What are friends ? Friends are those who are willing to sacrifice. My friends who claim themselves as true friends. In the end, they dumped me. What are they ? BEAST ! When I feel unloved thy are the first ones who dumped me. Is this what friends are for ???

FRIENDS ! What is call love !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sacrifice ? Friends say they would sacrifice. WIll they ??


Haiz .......... i bet everyone is feeling how i am feeling. i just quarreled with my mother. You see i was sick on tues and the following days i have camp so i went to see the doctors to get an MC.

And always when i am alone ant home i forgot to eat the medicine each time. And today my mother just scolded me. Yet i quiet. I know no matter what i say, do or anything she will not believe me anyway so i just save my breathe.

She will never understand what i am really goin through. I am really sick. But who cares all come down is just one thing. She will not believe me. All she cares is Glendon Glendon. She is obviously bias.

Bias ............haiz Jon i guess i know how you feel. No one likes me even they do they are all just bias towards me. I hate people who are bias. So i know i will never favour anyone. Not even both Liz and Sther.

No one ever knew the real me. No one ........ but twins and God does. Not even my mother knew who i am deep down inside. I just never show. I am just me. I am just Germaine.

This is the real me. The real Germaine you're looking for.


I need you like water
Like breath,
like rain
I need you
like mercy
From heavens gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

Have you ever know i need you ? To you liking you is nothing but for me liking you is something.

You’re the hope that moves me
To courage again
You’re the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it’s so amazing’cause that’s just how you are
And I can’t turn back now’cause you’ve brought me too far
I need you like water
Like breath,
like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

I really need you. I will die without you infact this me have died died long ago.

Die for who i am i cannot have a turn in my life anymore. I cannot prevent myself from falling for you.

All i want to say is I love you




i never allow it to get that far. What is really love ? How can my heart ever possibly break if i wasn't even going to start. Everytime i see him my love for him get stronger and stronger. Should i ever play on the safe side and forget him. Should i ever forget about him ? But its just too hard. Making the same mistakes my own mother did. Should i ever learn to trust guys. I will never allow anyone to walk into me yet i did especially to a guy.Slytherin represents cunning. Cunning never allowing anyone to go into who we really are. Well that suits me . It suits me i was cunning. Bravery was never mine. So did wise and soft -hearted.

Slytherins are just people who are cunning on the surface. Yet soft on the inside. We'll never let anyone in:

Or perhaps in Slytherin
You'll make your real friends,
Those cunning folk use any means
To achieve their ends.

But now this me. This girl in front of the mirror is about to change.


I will not make the same
mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
cause my heart
so much misery

Why is my life like that a tragic life a pathetic life.Everything i do is miserable.Why am i like that.........My Life My Destiny is a whole big giant ball of suck.I live a life of misery.Now i am going to let you all regret i will i will make you all regret for not having me around i want you all to know i am important i am a part of you without me you won't be any complete.

I will not break
the way you did
you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
to never let it get that far

The 13 years of my life is already like that i guess it would not be any harder to move on in this way.

Because of you
I never stray too
far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play
on the safe side
so I don't get hurt

The story of my life is bound to be like that so why not carry on like this at least it will not make any difference.

Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me
but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid....

Every single mudbloods out there is not worth hitting maybe they do so if YOU(you know who you are) think i am cheap and will do something funny GET A LIFE before i am cheap you are the one who is cheap okay!

I lose my way
and it's not to long before you
point it out
I cannot cry
because I know that's weakness
in your eyes
I'm forced to
fake a smile
a laugh every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break when
it wasn't even whole to start with

Let Me tell you all this time i am with all of you(You should know this all of you who i am referring to dun noe then get a life)I am always force to fake a smile.If you think i am insecured NO i am not okay i am very well fine kicking alive and everytime i am with you i feel pressured.

Because of you
I never stray too
far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play
on the safe side
so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
not only me, but
everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I am not that Germaine that you see who will abode by your bidding now i have my own thinking so give me back my life and scram don't call me look me up before i turn nasty

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
you should have known better
than to lean on me
You never thought
of anyone else you just saw
your pain
And now I cry in
the middle of the night
for the same damn thing

And yes i am ashamed of my own life i am ashamed why i have such pathetic life that even civillisations would conduct studies on how pathetic i was okay.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the
sidewalk
Because of you
I learnt to play on the safe side
so I don't get hurt

True Friends ? Where were they when you need them.I have learned not to trust anyone even my family and friends.I just do not know how to let any one else in .My past is something that can never be erased forever and ever.

Because of you
I try my hardest just to
forget everything
Because of you
I don't know
how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid


Do you really think in that way ? Yes i admit i do like you as in love you you are all i need.Every word you shouted at me felt like a pen knife piercing through me.I need you in my life.You may think everyday i live for no worries but is it true ? Everyday i lived in misery because of you.I lived in a world of darkness letting my own fear to eat me up.I rather be evil and allow you to notice me but did you ? Every word i said have you ever put it in heart ? Every thing i did for you have you ever apprieciate ?

NO NO NO NO NO NO.......not even my Cg members,Twins or anyone else did


My life afterall turns out to be a big giant ball of suck....Everything i do no one surpports me.My dream is to go Berklee but what my mum says she ask me to choose a ITE course already i mean come on man i am 13 only for goodness sake.I mean i hate my life why i can't be a beter person.Maybe my destiny is like that not to follow my dreams.
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who you are

Lord you are Lord of all the Earth and if you even bother to know my name and feel my hurt i mean why should i care.Because i am yours i am your children.I will shine like stars with the glory you give me i will be the children of light when you touch me.Lord change me renew my soul and mindset.


yo yo yo hahaha.......today is monday wild day here hee.............................So cool KYLE WAS NOMINATED FOR NATIONAL VOCALIST AWARD yeah woo!!!!!!!!hee...................Wa so tired still so tired from the camp must recharge my 'battery' okay going to have a early night